I must start this post by saying that I’m so thankful that Judah has been pretty healthy. We survived our first winter with only a few colds. No ear infections. No hospital visits.
Well yesterday I noticed that Judah was just a little fussy and all he wanted was to be held. Later last night he did not want to go to sleep and then the watery eyes started. my poor baby, it was all down hill from there. His nose started to run and then the sneezing started. I felt so bad for him. After trying to get him to go to sleep for about an hour I sat with him and rocked him for a while which helped for a while. But I did not end up putting him to bed till about 3 o’clock this morning. I was so tired.
Then he woke up at 6 am and did not go back to sleep until almost 8.
Mommy – Sleep = Zombie mommy I need some coffee!!!!!
Last night I had the craziest dream. In my dream I was lying on a bed in this room and by my side was my mom and my sisters. I look around the room and realize that I am in a dark hospital room with a giant belly. I put my hand on my stomach and feel the squirming of a little baby. As I’m admiring my belly a doctor comes in and tells me that she will be giving me shot to get things moving apparently this baby was not coming on its own. I close my eyes and when I wake I am still in this room but now everyone is congratulating me and telling me that I just delivered a baby girl via c-section????? Crazy huh? No more chocolate chip cookies for me before bed.
Who knows maybe one day I will be on that show ‘I didn’t know I was pregnant’. The plan is still to adopt a baby girl when Judah turns 3. But who knows. There are days when I look at Judah and wonder how I can ever love another child like I love him. I have heard that there is plenty of love in a mothers heart for all of her children. I am so excited to see what God has in store for our family.