It’s 10 p.m. and I find myself staring at this blank screen. To be honest I’m not sure where to start. I am a 31 year old single mother of one. A son who is almost two and a half. I had another blog once. I miss the anonymity of writing about myself… to no one at all. There is a certain release that I find in letting out what I am thinking. I’m still unsure if this will be an anonymous blog or not but it will be an honest one none the less.
I’ll start with today’s thoughts. I’m currently unemployed and looking for a job. As of last month my boss let me know that I would be laid of for a period of time. It’s stressful. Thankfully I do have a little income that will keep me afloat for a while, but it doesn’t do much for those nights that I lay awake wondering where I will be in a few month. My car is in desperate need of some TLC that has to wait, for now, and the holidays are just around the corner. And with all this craziness, there is this guy who is amazing and I am head over heels for but the feelings I have for him scare me.
I try not to worry, not to let the things I can’t change get to me. Hence the name of this blog. Somehow God reminds me that things will be okay. Gives me a certain peace that He will work things out.
Sometimes dark clouds fill the skies and threaten to drown me with life’s problems. But slowly I’m starting to find that even during the not so great times that there is a peace in dancing in the rain. That each cloud that comes has a silver lining. I just have to take the time to see it.