Today I had an interview with an insurance company.  The position was for an admin assistant position that will eventually turn into a insurance agent position.  I’m really hoping that I get it.  I know it will require a lot of hard work and dedication, but I’m ready to get started with something different.

The interview went great.  During the interview the owner of the company asked me to tell him a little about myself.  I started with where I went to high school, then went on to tell him that while I did attend college, I never finished.  I told him that for the past almost 10 years I worked clerical jobs.

This question got me thinking, what did I do with my life over the past 31 years.  Where along the road did I lose who I was.  Over the last year, so much has happened.  I feel like I’m just beginning to know who I really am.  I’m ready to get started with this second half of my life.  I so desperately want things to work out but I’m worried that things are not going to work out.  I’m scared that I will fail.  That I will fall.  That I will lose.  I don’t know how to shake these feelings.  But regardless of what I am feeling I know that I have to try, that I have to give it my all.

So I’m standing here waiting for the clouds to break. Ready for the rain to wash away the old.