Two months ago I met a man that I will call j.r. We met on the online site and hit it off right off the bat. He is single dad with 3 kids. We seem to have so much in common and over the past several weeks we spoke everyday.  Things went a little faster than I expected and I was having feeling for this person and vice versa.  

This was the first time in a long time that I actually was excited about someone.   I let my guard down and allowed myself to get lost in the idea of being with someone.  

Well because ofour schedule and the schedule with our kids we decided to wait to meet this coming Saturday at a concert.  Maybe this wasn’t such a great idea.  Fast forward to tonight, and we just “broke up” which I dont even know if you can do that if you have never met.  

For the past several days he had been a little standoffish and I could tell that he was not himself.  So I called him tonight and asked him to be honest with me.  And that he did.  He said that he was going through some things and was not ready for a relationship.   That he didn’t think that he or his kids were ready for someone long term. He said he was not trying to be cliche but that it was not me but him. I appreciate his honesty though. I would have rather know now then 6 months down the line.

So I guess you can say that this is one of those you win some you lose some kind of moment. Honestly, I don’t know what could have been. But if it’s one thing that I’ve learned is that you cannot force someone to be with you if they don’t want to. So here I am again in this single boat.  And im okay with that.  

I’m old enough to understand that sometimes things just don’t work out. That sometimes relationships don’t blossom because they were never meant to be in the first place.

Over the past several months I’ve learned that I have a lot to offer someone. Today I am patient, and I will wait on the Lord. I know He will bring me exactly what I need and exactly what my son needs. For that I am grateful.