2013 was probably one of the craziest years that I have had. This year I was living with my sister and her family. Our divorce was finalized in March of this year. I moved into my own apartment. I lost my job. I hurt. I fell down and stayed down for a while. I cried a lot. I learned that things change, situations change and that people change. I dated some and quickly realized that it was too soon. I hoped and dreamed. I lost. I prayed and I understood why things did or didn’t happen the way that I planned. I complained and wallowed in a big pool of self pity…. almost all year long.
But in this year I also fought. I loved. I laughed a lot. I made new friends. I was blessed with another year with my son. Despite being unemployed God never ceased to provide for me and Judah. I prayed and God answered. I was blessed with a job that only God could have opened a door for. I got up. Learned to keep going. I hoped and I dreamed. I allowed myself to be vulnerable. I watched Judah grow, listened to him laugh and sometimes cry. I was the best mom I could be. I was reminded of just how much I am loved by my family and friends; reminded that despite feeling lonely at times that I am never alone.
This upcoming year I want to do things a little a lot different. I want to slow down and enjoy life, spend time with Judah, laugh more, spend more time with family and friends. Hopefully this year I can do more things with Judah. My plan is to do something different with him every month. Doesn’t have to be anything big. Maybe a museum or a new park, Sea World or Disney world or the beach. I want to take care of myself too. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
I’m really excited about what 2014 will bring. Happy early New Year.