Letting go…for real this time

March will mark the two year anniversary of my divorce.   I can’t believe that I made it through.   But here I am.  Living.   Happy.  Blessed.  for the most part at least.  

A few months ago my ex decided that he wanted to try and see if things could work out between us.  He swore that he was genuine and that he really missed me….ect.  I was reluctant at first only because it took me so long to get over the pain of our divorce but I decided that for the sake of my son.  I would give it one last try.   Things started off a little rocky at first just because we’ve been separated for so long and really didn’t know how to act around each other.  But things were going good.  Or so I thought.   Fast forward to now…. we are no longer together.   Again.  Too many things have changed and too many things have not and I am okay with that. 

Im happy with where I am.  With who I am.  I will no wait for him to grow up.  I will not force things.  I will not be with someone who doesn’t show me the love I know I deserve.   I will move forward.   I will fall in love one day.

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2 thoughts on “Letting go…for real this time

  1. You blog gives me anxiety. Like the kind of anxiety where you feel their pain, the confusion, the indecision, the joy… I am about 2 years behind you and its hard. But I am so excited to see what is on the other side.

    1. I know it sounds cliche but just hang on and know that it gets better. Allow yourself to be angry and to grieve and to do all those things that you need to do in order to heal. I hope that my words give you encouragement.

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